Good news. I was about to post an October favourites but I realised I'm too late for that so I'll just post up my current favourites instead. Hopefully, it'll be up on my blog by this Thursday. Bad news? I've been reluctant to post anything on my blog because I'm not in a mood to do anything, really. I come to school, study and when it's time to go home, I go home. It's not like what it used to be, I know. But, this semester is wearing me out so much and of course, I have to deal with more conflicts too. Internal and external.
Well, I'm a type of lady who is quite difficult to express herself. I may portray myself as an extrovert because that's what many have told me. Honestly, I'm an introvert. I keep most of my feelings to myself. When I try to share about what's going on, my tongue goes numb. I've always believed that some things are better left unsaid and being surrounded by joy and laughter is the best medicine to cure sadness. In honest of all honesty, I do get sick and tired of putting up a mask and telling people "I'm fine" but that's just how I get through the day.
We're always in character wherever we go, whoever we're with. For an example, we're all different with our partners, family, friends, strangers or whoever it is. We play a different character with different people and in different situations. We're never real, even when we're alone by ourselves. We are never who we really are. I have to give credits to my facilitator for Monday's module for this paragraph. I just realised that fact today after being told by him. I was taken aback, of course. Because all these while, I've always thought that I knew who I really am when in reality, everyone is a mass of confused humans trying to figure out themselves.
I've seen so many things, I've heard so many things and I've felt so many things...
I don't know... All I can say to myself right now is to stay strong and just endure. No matter how tough and difficult the situation may be right now, it'll get better eventually. I know it and to those who are going through tough times currently, stay strong. Everything will be alright. It won't be an instant miracle but be patient, your day will come eventually and everything is going to be fine. Lots of love from me.
Love, Delilah.
